Fat Ass Friday
Oh dear motivation, where art thou?!
It's frustrating, during the day at work I am always 'yeah after work I am going to do this and this and this,' then after work comes and I literally do nothing, every day.
I don't know why, I mean I am always tired but that is nothing new, I literally have zero excuses other than I just don't damn feel like it.
It's more frustrating because I used to have all the drive in the world. I got shit done when it needed done. When my car broke, It was fixed by the following week, when I wanted to loose weight, I worked out, when I wanted to go do something, I went and did it. Now, I do nothing. My car is still broken a few months short of a year later and I still have yet to loose any weight. I have one month before my car has to be running and before I get to hang out with all my twig friends who I feel less than good standing next to at the beach. One month until Cruise Week in OC, MD. Yay...
Before, it may have been highly due to the fact I was good friends with this guy in college who has the most drive I have ever seen in a person. That had really rubbed off on me, and I was able to keep it going for a good year or two after college had ended and I no longer hung out with him. In the past year though I have felt that motivation dwindling and I have not been able to figure out how to light it up again.
All I know is I better figure something out because If I am not at the level Id like to be with a still broken car who isn't moving out of state by the end of summer I will be a very depressed person come this fall.
I like the idea that the fact that I am not where I want to be should be enough motivation to keep going and pursuing to better myself. I have a few tricks I have planned to try and help light a fire under my ass so we will see how this works, and if in a month I am driving my Evo with confidence or staring at it with defeat. Gosh that's even depressing to write.
Fuck yeah Friday, have a good weekend everyone!
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